Well this all started after a car ride listening to the particular song "Lucky" over and over again, that I've got to the point where I find the song and the subject rather disgusting. I would understand how some people say that they're in love with and marrying their best friend. But sometimes too much of a good thing is just not good.
Anyway, getting frustrated about the song and all is another story. What got me thinking was something Mandy said to Eddie this morning that made me realise a few more things about the treasured bunch I have, and all this jazz about being in love with your best friend. I can't remember what exactly Mandy said, but it was about the guy friends I invite to my xmas parties over the years. Then some sort of discussion in between and after narrowing everybody down, Eddie is the only single, available, heterosexual guy that is invited as my friend to the xmas party. That's also to say that he is the only guy that I can attach such labels to with regards to the people in my treasured list. So that's to say that if I should fall in love with my best friend, Eddie would be the only option. Well in this case, I'd say Eddie is the guy after my own heart. As he put it to someone before, I'm a female version of him. I could say I love him to bits as a friend, as someone with very similar interests, but when it comes to being in love with him, I'd say I don;t seem to be swinging in his direction. Plus I really would like to keep it that way as I seriously enjoy what I've got right now.
As for the other guy in the list, the 'problem' with him is that he's homosexual, or at least what I've heard anyway. Although he hasn't told me personally that he is, he's too effeminate for my tastes. Personality-wise, he's like my sister with regards to all the shopping, fashion, and vanity, and too fussy an eater for me to be in love with. As I've told Amy before, I don't care how handsome someone can be, but I can't stand a guy who's has more facial products alone compared to the hair, facial and body products I have in total. Ok, so that's a bit of an exaggeration but when we travel, his toiletries bag is at least twice the size of mine, and I'm not carrying travel-sized bottles of lotions. Anyway, what I love about him is his love for pastas. The man after my own stomach this time?
Then there's the one person that got me thinking really hard. The one person who looks and acts like a guy, but is a girl. Now she's the one that made me stop and really think of a whole lot of "what if" questions. What if she was a real guy? If she was, I think that I could fall in love with this one. Personality-wise, I'd say she has a lot of qualities that are right up there on my checklist. So what's the problem here? Other than having to turn lesbian, nothing really. As with all my other treasures, I love her as well, just that I'd rather not ever cross lines, complicate things, and lose a perfectly great friendship - which reminds me why the song disgusted me in the first place. Somehow I rather keep a great friendship the way it is than try to take it a step further, fail and have the friendship fall apart.
It's rather strange that among the 3 different personalities, they've got a strange mix of masculinity with femininity. Eddie is the man's man that is 'in touch with his feminine side' to a certain degree that girls seem to like to call him up for bridesmaid's duties... or maybe he's just good at entertaining and bargaining? Number 2 seems to have an equal balance of both ends, while number 3 is all female but seriously in touch with the testosterone running through her veins. :P
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