What Am I?

Am I not human? Do I come across as a person who does not have emotions? Do I look like a walking ear? Or am I just some machine on the other end of the line, recording your bitching, never to talk back or give any opinions?

What you did the other day was just bloody RUDE, and for you not to realise that I was pissed with you is just plain stupid. On top of that, even after sending you a message, you still didn't seem to take any initiative to even apologise. Worst of all you got the cheek to ask what can you do now, then ask if you should apologise, and then give such a shitty, non-committed apology that it was as though I was forcing it out of you. Seriously, I could have just kicked your balls in when you said that but you're lucky you were seated next to me and not across.

You say that you and your friends would argue about things and then forget about it the day after. But when, within the last 5 days, other than the exchange in the car, did I even get to argue anything? So maybe I'm not your friend, but do you ever stop and listen? The whole point about arguing is that you get things out in the open, that you voice what each of you think is wrong. Even in the car, what did I get to say? Honestly? All I got out was that I'm pissed off about the incident and then I was basically cut off, once again, by you saying that it's "such a small matter".

When you're the one being rude, it doesn't affect you as much as the one on the receiving end of that crap attitude. How did you like it when I didn't want to answer your questions? Did it feel like "some small matter" or did you start wondering if I was pissed off with you or something else? Did it feel nice that I didn't want to talk to you? Why all the questions to find out exactly what the problem was then?

I understand you're tired, that you've said your peace, but what makes you think that I've got nothing to say? What makes you think that just because you've reached home that it's alright to just cut me off and decide when, to your liking, that we would pick up the conversation again? If you wanted to bitch and not have any feedback, I suggest you start a private blog. But don't treat me as if I have no thoughts of my own, no feelings, no opinions. Don't treat me as though I'm some machine on the other end of the line to just hear what you have to say and then switch off once you're done.

Although I've gone through listening to so many people gripe, none have made me felt so used as you have. The worst part of it all is how disappointed you made me with the way you just think that it's some issue to be taken lightly, that apologising seems to be too much for something so "trivial".

I'd sooner be stupid than rude. 

Stupidity can be forgiven, but unnecessary rudeness is rarely forgiven or forgotten.