So My Life Is Less Important?

There seems to be a few people in my life who think that they can take advantage of me, or just take me for granted. I'm not sure if it's the way I live my life or just the image that some people get about me from the things I do. So what is my life like right now? Well I basically have a part-time job and I am studying part-time as well. It might not sound like it's a very packed schedule when you put them apart, but think about it this way - work almost everyday, for most part of the day till 6pm, then do research or attend classes at night till 10pm. Good thing about studying and working part-time is that I have a rather flexible schedule that allows me to take short trips but that also depends a lot on my school term.

Now what sparked me off to write this post was the very person that caused me grief in my Bugger Off post. What did Bozo do? He made an appointment to meet me on the 13th so that I could pass him something for his mom and some things I got him from my trip. He was supposed to meet me at my workplace so that we could just hop over and have a burger after I was done with work. But lo and behold, I finished my shift and Bozo was no where in sight. So I gave him a call only to find out that my call actually woke him up. Instead of just telling me that he would take about an hour to get ready and get his arse down, he just tells me that he'll call me later, which, after asking, was to be a few hours later. Already pissed that he didn't even bother setting an alarm, I told him to forget it and not to meet me later as I had a last minute invite to dinner with a few ex-classmates.

I ended up staying around my workplace to talk to my colleague and it started drizzling, which made me decide to call him again to check if he could make it down within the hour. He then tells me, after rounding the mulberry bush a few times, that they made him some food and he HAS to eat it. That was it! When you make an appointment and you wake up late it's already bad enough. But when you're supposed to meet and have something to eat, then u tell me you HAVE to eat what they made you when you were in the shower then don't bother explaining to me anything, groveling or try to sweet talk me into meeting you later.

The next day while online, a conversation was started with a friend, one I most likely won't be bothered if I lost all contact with. She asked if I could have dinner with her next week and I told her I'd have to wait and see. The reason why I didn't say yes right away, although I could, was because she would've asked me to plan the whole thing and let her know. Most likely throwing in a guest list as well as I couldn't make it to a last-minute invite to dinner the evening before. Once I've settled everything, she'll end up the one who wouldn't be able to make it, telling the rest of us that she's too busy that week, or whatever excuse she can come up with. But if I do end up having dinner, I'd end up being the person working behind the desk of the "Complaints" department, instead of eating across the table from a friend. Listening to her grumble about her life and work, while on the other hand she's taking trips around the world when she has the time and money.

Back to the conversation... She then asks if I'm that busy and what I'm busy with. Seriously... Who are you to think I'm that free that I can go out any damn time YOU want when you don't even know what I do these days? Maybe I'm busy avoiding you these days? It wasn't so much the question that pissed me off. It was the whole attitude, just like Bozo's, thinking that I would be free anytime she called. Try giving me a date to work with or at least try to know what the schedule I have is like.

Unlike these 2, I've got a friend who seldom goes out with me, but every time she would contact me, it would be a specific day and time set as she knows that's the time she's free. Plus asking me 2 weeks in advance would ensure that I'd be meeting up with you. Even if half the time I meet with her I end up listening to her troubles, she at least takes the time to ask and listen about what I'm doing in life. But do others actually try? They just whine and gripe and when you try to suggest something, they already have the most pessimistic view on the situation that they just don't bother even listening to what you have to say. How lovely is a one-way conversation? It's honestly not fun for the listening ear.

I wonder if people could actually take it when the really put on my shoes and live my life. I know I live it rather casually but then if I did it any way different I'd probably be in IMH or dead rather than writing this.

To Kay, Nurul & Leonard

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

To Adi aka Apple

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

To Cassandra

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

10 Names

1.YOUR REAL NAME:
Christiana

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME (first 4 letters of real name plus izzle)
Chriizzle

3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME (fav color and fav animal):
Blue Tiger

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME (middle name, and childhood street)
Marie Commonwealth

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, first 3 letters of mom's maiden name)
Weschtan

6. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME (2nd favorite color, favorite drink)
Black Peppermint Schnapps

7. YOUR IRAQI NAME (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, any letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your mums maiden name, 3rd letter of you dads middle name, 1st letter of a siblings first name, last letter of your moms middle name):
Hsaalag

8. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME (grandmother & grandfather's first name):
Joan Wilfred

9. YOUR GOTH NAME (black, and the name of one your pets)
Black Daisy

10. YOUR PORN STAR NAME (One of your pets names, and a street you've lived on)
Daisy Margaret

To Sally a.k.a. Siao Pu Dian

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

Love It

You Are Cookie Monster

Misunderstood as a primal monster, you're a true hedonist with a huge sweet tooth. You are usually feeling: Hungry. Cookies are preferred, but you'll eat anything if cookies aren't around. You are famous for: Your slightly crazy eyes and usual way of speaking How you life your life: In the moment. "Me want COOKIE!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

Paranoid?

If you get more than 30, you're paranoid.
If you get 21 to 29, your normal.
If you get 11 to 20, you're pretty normal.
If you get 10 or less, you're fearless.
If you get 0, you're a jerk that thinks you're tough. Everybody fears something.

I fear…

[ ] gay people
[ ] gay people in the dark
[ ] an eerie feeling in the dark
[ ] being single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x] public speaking
TOTAL: 1

[x] heights
[ ] cats
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] ants
[ ] driving
[ ] flying
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
TOTAL: 2

[ ] dark water
[ ] the ocean
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[x] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boy/girlfriend's or ex's dad
[ ] my boy/girlfriend's or ex's mom
[ ] mice/rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
TOTAL: 4

[ ] wind
[ ] cotton balls
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[ ] crossing bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] men
[ ] women
TOTAL: 4

[ ] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[x] diseases
[ ] snakes
[ ] sharks
[ ] shots
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
TOTAL: 5

[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[x] being blind
[ ] being deaf
[ ] growing up
TOTAL: 6

[ ] monsters under my bed
[ ] certain colors
[ ] certain numbers
[ ] 'signs' that something is going to happen
[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[x] someone you love or care about getting hurt
[x] someone you love or care about hurting you
[ ] love
[ ] spiders
TOTAL: 8

To Daniel H.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

I'm Back!

Living Will

My Living Will... with reference to a previous morbid post

I, Christiana, being of sound mind and body, do not wish to be kept alive indefinitely by artificial means. Under no circumstances should my fate be put in the hands of pinhead politicians who couldn't pass Secondary school Science if their lives depended on it, or lawyers/doctors interested in simply running up the bills. If a reasonable amount of time passes, and I fail to ask for at least one of the following:


Chocolate
Peppermint On Ice
Chocolate
Diet Coke
Cold Beer
Chocolate
Pasta Aglio Olio
Seafood
Chocolate
Any Food
Chocolate
Diet Coke
Coffee
Pepper
Chocolate
Ice cream
Cup of tea
Chocolate
Diet Coke
Sex
Chocolate

It should be presumed that I won't ever get better. When such a determination is reached, I hereby instruct my appointed person and attending physicians to pull the plug, reel in the tubes, and call it a day.

To Mz Yeo

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

To Airol

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

To Cheyenne

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

Off To Seoul

Details here...

Analyse This

Psychoanalyze Yourself.
Fill in your answers and then scroll for the meaning behind it. Don't mess up the fun, do the answers first.

1. You are not alone. You are walking in the woods. Who are you walking with?
Amy

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal is it?
Cute little tiger cub

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
I'ma pick it up, give it something from my trusty convenience-store-bag and bring it home

4.You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing with your dream home that looks like...
my dream home... DUH! Well a nice home with a big living room filled with plushy seats with a fireplace and a huge TV, lotsa windows that open up for the fresh air, even bigger kitchen with all my shiny kitchen equipment, and a bedroom big enuf to fit a king-sized bed and have giant pillows thrown around, together with my soft toys, a neat toilet with a shower, and a separate jacuzzi, plus an area for little Tigger to grow up in.

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?
Nah.. I've got Tigger

6.You enter the house. You walk in to the dining room and see..
My dining table with nothing on it.

7. You exit the house through the back door. Lying in the grass is a cup. What material is the cup made of?
Wood

8.What do you do with the cup?
Clean the cup and keep it.

9.You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself standing at the edge of a body of water. What type of body of water is it?
A lake

10. How will you cross the water?
Swim, go around or row a boat
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What the answers mean:

1. The person who you are walking in the woods with is the most important person in your life.

2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems in your life.

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems.

4.The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition to solve your problems.

5. NO fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. You'd prefer people not drop by unannounced.

6. If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, or people, then you are generally unhappy

7. The durability of the material with the cup is made of is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship with the person you named in #1.

8. Your disposition of the cup is representative of your attitude toward person in #1.

9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your sexual desire.

10. How wet you get in crossing the water is indicative of the relative importance of your sex life

All In The Past

I've always questioned why is it that people, even though they might have just met me for the very first time, would open up and start telling me their life story, or what ever it is that is bugging them. I guess I've got used to being caught in that situation one too many times to even stop and tell the other person that I'm not a walking problem-solver nor am I a psychologist (well maybe not yet.. hehe). Then, if they still keep in contact, I basically end up listening to them whenever their life hits turbulence.

I would say I'm almost immune to all of the stories and people asking for some advice, but what I can't stand is when people complain about things, and worse is when I shouldn't be listening to it. There is a certain amount of information which should be kept private, especially if I'm related to the person. Don't expect me to be neutral when I know the both of you, and because of that, I know you are both liars that blow things out of proportion. I still don't know exactly what happened, because neither of you can tell a straight story, and both sides don't ever seem to tally.

Sometimes what happened years ago should just be kept in the past and not dug up just because of something the other person did yesterday. I don't have to be in one to know that relationships are tough to maintain as friendships are just as fragile. I also know that it takes 2 hands to clap and you would obviously know why the two of you went your separate ways. If you're so stupid as to let go of a relationship you held so dear without finding out the reason he/she decided to end it, then you obviously didn't care that much. So don't say that he/she ended the relationship and be bitter about it. Did you try to stop it when it happened or did you just agree and went on to feel sorry for yourself?

Another thing is to act like an ass and think that you were being smart/sarcastic. You would have succeeded if people actually got your sarcasm, but you are just being a fool if you had to explain your behaviour, and seem just childish when you do it in retaliation to something your ex said when he/she was just being nice. You're obviously too bitter and haven' moved on although you might have a new bf/gf. Telling yourself and the rest of the world that you've moved on doesn't mean that you really have. To move on is to let go of the past and not be affected by your ex so much you have to call me the next day to talk for hours complaining about the things he/she did to you the day before, as well as years ago.

Another thing I don't like is when people try to brag about themselves and their lives while telling me how sorry their life has been. It just doesn't go together! One minute you're telling me how sad/angry/depressed you are, and the next thing you're telling me you've accomplished a lot of things and you're happy where you are. You just contradict yourself and just seem really lost to me. Why do you think I want to hear about your accomplishments, when I didn't even ask about you in the first place? Think about it... I didn't even ask to know about you and you started telling me all the sob stories. If you've really achieved something in your life, you don't have to toot your own horn as it will speak for itself.

I can say that I'll be there for you when you need me, but don't test my patience or make me take sides when you're complaining about a relationship-gone-wrong with someone who's actually related to me. It's just not cool to put me in a situation like that if you expect me to listen to you whine again. Leave the past where is was....

Grow Up! Let Go! Move On!

Another One Of Those....

A: Loves to flirt
B: Loves people
C: Best smile
D: Has one of the best personalities ever
E: Freaking beautiful
F: People wild and crazy adore you.
G: Never lets people tell you what to do.
H: One of the best damn bf/gf anyone could ask for
I: Loves to laugh
J: Freaking rowdy
K: Really silly.
L: Really easy to fall in love with
M: Makes dating fun
N: Good girlfriend/boyfriend
O: Loved by everyone
P: Popular with all types of people.
Q: A hypocrite.
R: Easy to fall in love with
S: Gets blamed for everything
T: A freak in bed
U: Gets hugs
V: Not judgmental
W: Very broad minded
X: Never let people tell you what to do.
Y: Great kisser
Z: Lives life for fun

Comments with what YOUR name defines.

C: Best smile
H: One of the best damn bf/gf anyone could ask for
R: Easy to fall in love with
I: Loves to laugh
S: Gets blamed for everything
T: A freak in bed
I: Loves to laugh
A: Loves to flirt
N: Good girlfriend/boyfriend
A: Loves to flirt

PS: Amy, now there's an answer to why you kept saying I'm a big flirt huh?

To Amanda

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

To Didi

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...